So Long Procrasination, Hello Productivity (I Hope)

Procrastination. It’s a beautiful word to me. After all, I’m actually pretty good at it. I recently had an assignment due, whereby I had to write an essay on the merits of social media for museums. I had completed all the set readings for the essay, conducted my research, written up an essay plan…and yet I couldn’t bring myself to write the essay itself. Anything and everything else seemed like a better way to spend my time. I spent time gardening, reading, baking, cleaning, playing video games… I kept telling myself, “Oh, it’s okay, you have the whole of next weekend to complete it. She’ll be right, mate!”

The problem was everything was not alright. The Friday before my essay was due saw me completely sidelined by a sinus infection. I couldn’t even contemplate opening my eyes for more than 30 seconds, let alone staring at a computer screen for hours at a time. After two days of complete and total incapacitation, I had to spend my Sunday evening tapping away on my laptop, hoping against all hope that what I was writing would make sense. Thankfully I had researched the topic fairly heavily over the weeks, and so I didn’t have to waste time looking for useful resources. But still, I regret all those hours I spent procrastinating. I wasted those hours I spent doing the hard slog because I didn’t have the mettle to force myself to complete a task which I found tedious.

I have learnt a valuable lesson through this sinus infection. I have always been told: “Do not put off until tomorrow that which you can do today.” But really, it should read: “Do today that which you may not be capable of doing tomorrow.”

So, please, if you see me on Facebook, Twitter, Blogger, or curled up on the couch with a good book when you know I should be completing an assignment, please inform me that I need to pull my proverbial finger out of my proverbial butt and get going with the work I need to do. 

Procrastination, I love you. You have given me hours’ worth of entertainment. But now, I am afraid, it is time for us to part ways.

Seeking Inspiration: Gwen Harwood

I take inspiration for my writing from the works of many different people. I have hit a wall in my writing lately and have been reading widely to try and spur myself on. As I was rifling though my hundreds-upon-hundreds of books, I came across a book of poetry that I had to read for high school literature. My Literature teacher, Mrs Fletcher, was the type of teacher who could inspire a passion for almost any book for almost any student. Before I had her as a teacher, I had no time for poetry. Through her I can now appreciate the subtlties in poetry.

But I digress. The book I stumbled upon was a collection of poetry by Australian Gwen Harwood. At first I didn't like her poetry - she seemed to whine a lot about her kids - and my Literature teacher struggled to make me understand the beauty behind the words. The thing you need to know about Gwen Harwood is that she really struggled to have her poetry published under the name of a woman. She had to take on a pseudonym. She seemed like such a pleasant, well mannered house-wife. Until she got her revenge. She sent a pair sonnets to The Bulletin (I think?) under the guise of Walter Lehmann. They were published without the editors realising that she was giving them the old 'up yours'. See if you can detect what might just be a teensie bit rude about these sonnets:

Eloisa to Abelard

Solace and hope depart. God’s finger traces

on fields of frozen darkness: You shall find

loss, absence, nothing. Walking on the wind

Our lord speaks to a crowd of foolish faces,

no face that is not mine, while filtering through

gaps, honeycombs of memory you seem

but the faint ghost of a remembered dream.

Unveiled by pain, I bleed. My wound is you.

Lost in the well of space, my spirit hears

“Lucis creator optime…” The choir

entreats God, out of tune. I join my voice

to theirs. Nightfall’s immense. I taste my tears.

I reap the harvest of my own desire.

No heart escapes the torment of its choice.

Abelard to Eloisa

Far above memory’s landscape let the fears

unlatched from thundering valleys of your mind

carry their lightning. Stare the sun up. Find

kinetic heat to scorch your mist of tears.

All that vision limned by night appears

loose in dismembering air: think yourself blind.

Louder than death in headlines the unkind

elements hawk my passion: stop your ears.

Deny me now. Be Doubting Thomas. Thrust

into my side the finger of your grief.

Tell me I am an apparition frayed

out of the tattered winding-sheet of lust.

Recall no ghost of love. Let no belief

summon me, fleshed and bleeding, from the shade.

(Source: http://redroomcompany.org/static/uploads/docs/pam_brown_mineslec07.pdf, retrieved 07.09.2011)

Since finding this nugget of information about Gwen Harwood as a person, I re-read her poetry with a keener eye. I was able to pick up on so much more in her works, and I now love the stories she weaves. I will frequently be in an unpleasant situation, and have an apt line or two of Harwood's poetry pop into my head. Above and beyond all others, my favourite is about cat fights that women can have with each other. I think that all women can relate to the situation. It is called 'Chance Meeting'.

"no one who knows what friendship is
chooses and picks the virtuous;
we love where we must love; so when
we showed ourselves without disguise
friendship itself had chosen us.
I could have hidden from you then
all you reproach me with. You suffer
that knowledge as I suffer still
the self that made my tongue my own
to speak the love I still must offer
whether you wish me well or ill.
You drop me. I walk on alone."

—	Excerpt from ‘Chance Meeting’, by Gwen Harwood

Spring Is In The Air

 Image source: http://www.coffee-in-a-cup.com/i-smell-spring/

Dear Spring,

You are here at last, and I am very excited to welcome you back home, where you belong. We here in Melbourne have been truely blessed with some beautiful weather over the last few weeks, and I attribute it to your impending visit. I have so many plans for the sunshine you so kindly offer to me - I will sit in it, garden in it, read in it, write in it, walk in it, snooze in it...the options are endless.

Thank you, Spring. I love you.

Warmest regards,

Ash oxo